You know how you can be so happy then all of a sudden old feelings come back out of nowhere and make you feel like crap? Yeah, that’s what I’m dealing with right now. I don’t even know what’s wrong with me right now. Maybe I just need to be committed. Seriously. My mood swings are screwing me and everyone else over. Today wasn’t all that bad either. I’ll just start all over tomorrow. That’s all I can do anyway. Just push forward and hope for a brighter day. It’s still irritating though.
Sometimes I wish I could just disappear. Find out who would really miss me and just get away from all the bullshit. Even if only for a day. I just care too much and I really wish I didn’t. No one seems to appreciate it and I guess that’s because after a while I just get annoying. I don’t mean to I just do. I’m just going to take a vow of silence forever. Can’t hurt anyone or can’t get hurt if I don’t say anything right? I know that’s stupid but right now I’m just feel like I’m failing everything and everyone. I can’t seem to do anything right anymore and I feel like I’m failing everyone I care about. I really don’t know guys.
ANYWAY. Nothing really happened today. Slept in today and I have no idea why. Went to the bank, applied to Raritan and that’s about it. Yeah, my life is boring haha. Tomorrow…oh, how I’m hoping for a better tomorrow. I know you guys are too so you guys can have a more exciting post. Sorry sorry sorry. I’m too familiar with that damn word.