Hey guys! Thought I forgot about y’all didn’t you? I promise I didn’t. I just didn’t want to start off the year with a negative note. I wanted to give you guys some positivity. It took some time but I have it! 🙂 HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! haha!!
I’ve come to find that I’m not acustomed to the word ‘happy’. I use comfortable. Baby steps. I’ve had a couple of speed bumps but I’m not going to buckle under pressure. It’s not going an option this year. Trying to make a steady pattern of how I would life for things to go this year. It’s more than resolutions it’s a change. A change of living, a change of pace, a change thinking, and a change of life. I’m just hopeful. I’m ready for the set backs, heart break, bad days, and all of the sadness and pain that comes with life. I’m hoping for a steady, growing, healthy relationship, my writing to take off, to get my own place, and the joy and happiness that life can bring sometimes.
I don’t want perfection. Perfection is boring and so planned and predictable. A little chaos makes life fun. Too much chaos makes you insane. You have to learn to balance it out yourself when life won’t do it for you. That’s someting I’m just starting to figure out and I hate that it took nineteen years to realise. One day at a time. Today was a good step in a right direction which is why I thought it would be a good idea to make this post. I hope this helps someone and I also hope that you guys are having a wonderful week. I love you and there will be more of these to come. Here’s to a fresh start and wonderful year! 🙂