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Music Entry!

Okay, so music is a HUGE part of my life. If I didn’t want to spend the rest of my life writing I would probably be managing bands. Who knows? Maybe I’ll get bold and do both! Until then here are some really amazing bands you should check out! You’ll love them I promise 🙂

– Lions Among Us
– Nobody Takes Vegas
– This Season’s Color
– Such Great Heights
– Sailing With Ghosts
– Drop The Anchor In
– Sirens
– Consider Me Dead
– Dear You
– An Honest Year
– Goodmorning, Gorgeous

You might know the next few bands I’m about to name, but I still think they deserve more recognition 🙂

– Sleeping With Sirens
– Pierce The Veil
– Of Mice and Men
– DayShell
– The Summer Set
– Mayday Parade
– You Me At Six
– Go Radio
– We Are The In Crowd

That’s all for now. Please, please check these bands out. I love them and think you will too 🙂

Also, please comment and tell me what you think!

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June 12, 2013

Hello, hello world. How do I start? Where do I begin? Hmmmm let’s see. Well, boyfriend and I had a talk and things are getting better. Slowly but surely. I’m not giving up. I’m determined to make this work. I’ve never felt this way about anyone and I’m not letting petty arguments tear us apart. I’m proud to say that he isn’t either which makes me even more determined that this can work. I love him with all my heart.

On another note: my parents. They really aren’t helping to make anything better, but they’re backing off…I guess. They’re version of backing off and the world’s version of backing off are two totally different things. I get that they want me to be safe and it’s hard for them to let me go, but they’re showing it in the worst way. Being rude, nasty, and negative is not the way for anyone to get what they want. All they’re doing is pushing me further away and causing more of a distance between us. It’s just more bullshit and drama and I’m done dealing with all that.

I think this has shown me that when it matters most my family won’t support me on anything. They’ve shown this time and time again, but this time it really proved a point. I want their support and I don’t want this to tear us apart, but I’m tired of having to be the person to fix everything all the time. I keep making excuses for them but I’m all out of excuses. At some point they need to let me grow up. If this is what it takes then so be it.

Tomorrow is a new day and it can’t rain forever right? I really just need July to get here. I need to be with him. 24 more days. We can make it. I can make it.

Until Later,

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June 11, 2013

Hey guys! Miss me? I didn’t forget and I didn’t die. I’ve just been busy with college…and being manically depressed. Nothing new there. However, college is done now and I’m not going back. That was possibly the worst idea my parents had in a while. I’m just going to focus on getting my books done and out. 

In other news: I am moving out and away. Boyfriend and I have decided to say “goodbye” to long-distance and hello to “together forever”. Which has made everything in this so called family stressful. Everyone keeps trying to get me to change my mind and since I won’t everyone keeps telling me I’m wrong and I’m not thinking clearly. Everyday and everything is an argument and I’m reaching my breaking point. Honestly, I’m just done with them when it comes to this.

I always try my hardest to do whatever I can to make them happy and when I finally decide to take a stand for myself and do something that’ll make me truly happy everyone gives me shit. So far I’m a bad Christian, I’m air-headed, I’m close minded, stubborn, and of course: wrong. My sister will barely talk to me, my parents spend everyday naming new reasons why I shouldn’t do it, and almost the people I thought were my real friends have ditched me completely. This has gone from being the happiest moment in my life to the worst and I just want July to get here so I can get this over with. 

Also, my boyfriend/fiance has become an ass for some reason. I’m not sure why. He does this every summer. He makes new friends and just neglects that I exist. I honestly just don’t know. Maybe, as usual, everything is my fault and I’m asking for too much. Everything has honestly just become so complicated since we’ve decided to do this, and I’m getting tired of everyone’s bullshit. Even when I’m finally and truly happy about something people find a way to shit on it. I’ve reached shut down mode and I just don’t wanna talk to anyone anymore about anything. I’m just going to curl up into a ball until July is here. I don’t want this to separate my family, but if it does, it does. 

Who knows? Maybe this will all blow over. I want this all to blow over. I need this all to blow over. I’m positive it will. It’s always darkest just before the dawn, and without the dark the stars can’t shine.

Until Later,