So, I took a few days to myself to try and get my head together and it was one of the best things I’ve done so far this year. I was falling back into old habits and trying to fix everything all at once and I just can’t do that.
Nothing can be solved that way for me. I just have to do what I can and stop pressuring myself. Life isn’t what I always want it to be but I have to do my best and face each day as it comes. Instead of pushing myself I’ve decided to just pick an area of my life that I think needs improvement and work on it until I think it’s at its best for the time being. Focus on one thing and stick to it.
I know I’ll still get stressed and I know I’ll weigh myself down with worry, but I’m hoping that by doing this the stress and worry of it all won’t be as bad as it has been.
I’ve also decided to start focusing more on the good than all the bad. It’s so easy for me to get wrapped up in my emotions and cancel out the good but that’s also when I start to push myself back down into the hole I’ve been trying to climb out of for years. You can’t get anywhere better if you keep walking backwards.
This whole process is going to take longer than I expected or wanted but I will get to a better place. I just have to take it one day at a time and there’s nothing wrong with that (that’s mainly for me cause I need to remind myself of this every once in a while). This will probably be my craziest adventure in life yet (and that’s saying A LOT) but I’m ready for it. I just have to remember that it’s only a bad day and not a bad life.
breathe it in and let it out